everyone's heart, belongs to someone

“and if your lucky in this life.. you will be “that” person for the one who has yours…”

i must admit, you still have the biggest part of my heart, i still care for you and you are still that special. but, its different now. i moved on, i tried hard enough to get over you, to get over the pain that you have done in me. if you only know how much pain you have caused and how much i suffer, and how much courage and strength i put up just to get back up again. its never easy, i have come so far now to go back. time make me stronger. this time i realized so many things in my life, i deserved so much better than being hurt over and over again.

if you want me back, prove it. show me how much you want it to work out. because this time its not easy for you to win me back. atleast prove to me the you are worth it, again. because right now, i feel like, i dont want you back. you are right, im just cautious. but not only that, im also scared. im scared to take you back because i know that you’re going to hurt me again, and somehow lose me again and im scared that when that happen, you will gonna lose me forever. and i dont know if i can still handle such thing again. i dont want that to happen. but im not closing any possibilities, you are like my bestfriend and consider you still that way right now, we’ve been in so many things and i value you so much. and i know if we are meant to be together, somehow things will work out in time. just this time, lets find our own life. breath. and if ever that someday that time will bring us back together, lets fall inlove again. and if not, lets just be thankful that once in our life we find each other, and for the love that we have and let just cherish our memories that we create together. i still love you, i always will. and im always here for you. remember that.

next stop-happiness

" I love you even if the story of our love is not written on the lines of fate carved on our hands.
I know fate is what we want it to be.
These lines are going to write our love story again from a new beginning that's in the coming. "



,autumn's concerto

He is that special

I wish that I could make him realize that he’s worthy of being loved. That he could be someone’s world. That somebody thinks of him every single night before she goes to bed and every single morning when she wakes up. That someone nearly dies with yearning thinking of his arms around her. That somebody loves him more than anything because he’s fantastic.

Letting go

Letting go doesn’t mean giving up… it means moving on. It is one of the hardest things a person can do. Starting at birth, we grasp on to anything we can get our hands on, and hold on as if we will cease to exist when we let go. We feel that letting go is giving up, quitting, and that as we all know is cowardly. But as we grow older we are forced to change our way of thinking. We are forced to realize that letting go means accepting things that cannot be. It means maturing and moving on, no matter how hard you have to fight yourself to do so.

If love fails, set yourself free, let your heart spread its wings and fly again. Remember you may find love and lose it, but when love dies, you never have to die with it.

be where you are

If a bird falls in love with a fish, where would they live? Who gets the fins and who loses the wings? It’s an irony. That’s how cruel but poetic love can be.

loving someone from a distance means knowing what it is like to have your heart be a thousand miles away, and you still have to breathe. but also believe that distance between two hearts should not be an obstacle; you should do anything you can to be with the one you love.

I wish I could fold the map of the world up to make certain country much closer to one another. i just want to be where you are.

“I want to live.”

At moments like this, when loneliness seemed like my only friend, the only place safe to hide from the world at large was under the sheets.

and there are some mornings when I cry and cry and mourn for myself. Some mornings, I’m so angry and bitter. But it doesn’t last too long. Then I get up and say, “I want to live.”

A Reason, a Season, or a Lifetime

People come into your life for a reason, a season, or
a lifetime. When you figure out which one it is, you
will know what to do for each person.

When someone is in your life for a REASON … It is
usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have
come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you
with guidance and support, to aid you physically,
emotionally, or spiritually. They may seem like a
godsend, and they are! They are there for the reason
you need them to be.

Then, without any wrong doing on your part, or at an
inconvenient time, this person will say or do something
to bring the relationship to an end.

Sometimes they die.
Sometimes they walk away.
Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.

What we must realize is that our need has been met, our
desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you
sent up has been answered. And now it is time to move on.

When people come into your life for a SEASON …
Because your turn has come to share, grow, or learn.
They bring you an experience of peace, or make you laugh.
They may teach you something you have never done.
They usually give you an unbelievable amount
of joy. Believe it! It is real! But, only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons; things
you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional
foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the
person, and put what you have learned to use in all
other relationships and areas of your life. It is said
that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

-author unknown

,g0ne f0rever

I feel so much better
Now that you’re gone forever
I tell myself that I don’t miss you at all
I’m not lying, denying that I feel so much better now
That you’re gone forever


Now things are coming clear
And I don’t need you here
And in this world around me
I’m glad you disappeared.

-lyrics Three Days Grace - “Gone Forever”

until then

“and for once in your life, you need to walk away and suffer the loneliness.. because you believe that one day in the far and distant future, you’ll be happy. and not so cracked and broken anymore. and you won’t cry anymore. and when you smile, it won’t be a façade- it will be real. and that empty heart-shaped black hole in your chest will slowly fade back to a healthy pink color. and you’ll know that all the pain, all the sadness, everything you feel when you’re crying yourself to sleep.. it’s gone. and you’re stronger for it.

but until then, it’s going to hurt.. and you’re going to cry. and it’s going to continue to be the worst times of your life. and you’re going to wonder how long it’s going to take. and you will fake that smile until your face hurts. and you will drink until you forget. and then you will remember in the morning. and every day, it will hit you like a ton of bricks. and every night, you will wonder where he is, and what he is doing, and if he’s thinking about you too. and you will cry, you will cry, you will cry until you think you’re out of tears. but they will continue to fall…”